Whilst I was at school I wasn't really that popular which meant that I would find myself going to the canteen and spending inadequate amounts of money on chocolate and cookies, I absolutely loved Kit Kat Chunky's, I would have 3 or 4 a day. Chocolate I find, is my best friend, it might sound weird but because of my popularity chocolate made me happy and for a short while at least I wasn't feeling depressed or angry.
After 7 years though of working I still feel like my best friend has become my number 1 weakness. How do you quit a habit of a lifetime? I hope that before I go to Spain I can lose my stone that has appeared from out of nowhere. Tonight was one of the lows in my life...if only weight could disappear over night.
I am very ashamed of myself for cheating not just for myself but for my personal trainer who has done such a great job of getting me fitter. Why can't I return his wishes? To be honest tonight I am feeling very upset and angry with myself. I must try harder and not think of food as my best friend.
More than anything else in this world is for me to be slim and be at a healthy weight which I haven't been for some years. I hope that before Xabia I will have lost my stone but it will take a lot of determination and sacrifices. Can I do it?
